I want to say love you on

I Want To Say I Love You On Your Birthday,
Though Love Is Something You Don’t Want From Me.
Things Didn’t Go So Well When I Last Said It,
And So I’ll Keep It Silent In My Heart.
But How The Words Reverberate Within Me!
A Song That I Must Struggle Not To Sing,
A Music I Must Dance To Without Motion,
A Poem That I Must Never Read Aloud.
Your Wishes Are A Wall I Would Not Scale,
Yet Won’t Abandon, Loathe To Leave Behind.
I Cannot Have, And Cannot Bear To Lose You,
And So I Send You This In My Despair.