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Why didn-‘t he want me?
Why has he put me through so much torture?
If he were here with me, maybe things would be normal
My sibling knew there male role models, so why must I be in the dark about mines
They all get the love they deserve
It-‘s my fault
I am the problem
I was too skinny or too fat, too tall or too short, too black or too white
Maybe if he loved me my mom would love me too
He is out there somewhere with me not on his mind
He is out there tending to his family with perfect 10 daughters
I wish I was his perfect 10
I will never be on his list
Until he comes back I don-‘t think I will ever be on my mothers list either.
Maybe one day I find him myself and tell him how I feel
But until then, I know nobody wants me.
Life is what you make it, and I made myself a perfect 0.
Gabrielle Abrams